Sorry I've been away for a while - I'm still trying to deal with my mother's sudden passing on Thanksgiving. Boy, grief can really surprise you - it can sneak up on you at the most inopportune times! It creeps into all the little crevices in your life that you weren't even aware were there!
I've finally decided that my theme word for 2011 is "become." I need to really become a working artist/illustrator and stop chasing after the quick money fix (which rarely worked anyway!) To become comfortable with working for myself (is that even possible?) I know fear is always going to be my sidekick, so I need to accept that, too. So my word is BECOME.
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Become is such a fantastic word! My word for 2011 is similiar - reinvention. I need to reinvent myself as an illustrator. :) So I can relate and I look forward to reading about your journey!
I can also relate to the grief of losing a parent wriggling itself into places you never expect. I lost my dad suddenly in 2009. The grief is less frequent now, but sometimes, it rears its head when you least expect it. Its kind of baffling sometimes. :)
Cheers,
Kristine
Hello Lynn,
It's been a very, very long while. So sorry that I have been away. I see that lots has changed and lots has happen since our last emails to each others.
I am sooooooo very sorry to hear of your mom's passing. I knew something was up , but I didn't know that it was something so painful as this.
I lost my mom a few years back and it's still fresh as the day it happened. I want her back here so badly and I somehow I know that while she loves us so much she wouldn't come back if I begged to her too.
It's never easy Lynn and please know that you are in my thoughts and prayers. Praying that you will find peace and morn as much as you need too. I hope that you are giving yourself this permission. I tried to rush the process and fell hard. I think I've shared with you the lost of my child then my mom right after that. It was just sooooo overwhelming. I know it hurts like hell right now. Be encouraged and please know that I wish I where there to cry with you and hug you tight. Give yourself time Girly.
Praying that the peace of God will rule your heart, mind and soul at this time.
Love you,
Always your friend and fan,
Vanessa
Wow, I am so deeply sorry for your loss. :( I have lost both of my parents, too. It is difficult and there are times when it just hits you unexpectedly. My dad passed away when I was 18, so I've had 22 years to adjust to that (uh oh...just told my age! LOL) Lost my mom about 4 years ago. Time does heal...don't be hard on yourself either for mourning your loss. It's been very recently for you. Again, I am so sorry for your loss. I do love visiting your blog. Hope that this new year will bring you joy and peace! TRACY CUNDIFF
Thank you for all of your kind comments! I really appreciate it!
Oh Lynne, so sorry about your mom. I know about that sneaky grief, seeping into cracks and crevices of life. Please know that your sadness will lessen over time and one day you will smile again.
Your word "become" is perfect. My word is "hope" and one day soon I hope to get over the grief of losing my twin sister. This is gonna be my year and I hope it is yours as well!
Many blessings to you...
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